Being in "Ctrl"

I thought about what it means to choose the word of God over emotions. Our emotions flow from the core of our heart, they overwhelm us, intoxicate us, and are in us, with us--to make a choice to deny strong feelings beating in sync with our heartbeat, that's tough. It is one thing to keep your emotions to yourself instead of parading it for the world to see, and quite another to be living through them, and retrospectively making the decision to deny them. But choosing the word of God is the recognition that as real and as powerful your emotions are, you choose to stick close to the word of God instead of acting upon feelings that confront you.

I guess the issues of life always birth out of our relationships with people. And that’s where it is the trickiest because we never have direct control over relationships, there are too many factors involved and it is not something we can work hard at solving. Yet a large part of our emotions arise from our relationships with people, instead of the last ‘A’ we achieve or the newest handbag we bought. Herein lies the contradiction: on the one hand, we have little control over relationships, on the other, relationships impact our emotional life so deeply. To resolve this tension would be to centre our feelings and thoughts on an outer objective truth that would give us more directed choices, and less emotional dependence over relationships. Ah, why have I made it sound so formulaic? I always wonder if one can be such a mastery of emotion handling that one becomes
robotic.

I really like this song:



Closer To Love


She got the call today
One out of the gray
And when the smoke cleared
It took her breath away

She said she didn't believe
It could happen to me
I guess we're all one phone call from our knees

We're gonna get there soon

If every building falls
And all the stars fade
We'll still be singing this song
The one they can't take away

I'm gonna get there soon
She's gonna be there too
Cryin' in her room
Prayin' oh, Lord come through

We're gonna get there soon

Oh, it's your light
Oh, it's your way
Pull me out of the dark
Just to shoulder the weight
Cryin' out now
From so far away
You pull me closer to love
Closer to love

Meet me once again
Down off Lake Michigan
Where we could feel the storm blowin'
Down with the wind

And don't apologize
For all the tears you've cried
You've been way too strong now for all your life

I'm gonna get there soon
You're gonna be there too
Cryin' in your room
Prayin' Lord come through

We're gonna get there soon

Oh, it's your light
Oh, it's your way
Pull me out of the dark
Just to shoulder the weight
Cryin' out now
From so far away
You pull me closer to love
Closer to love

Cause you are all that I've waited for all of my life
(We're gonna get there)
You are all that I've waited all of my life

You pull me closer to love
Closer to love
Pull me closer to love (You are all that I've waited for)
You pull me closer to love
Closer to love
Closer to love (Cause you are all that I've waited for)
Closer to love

Pull me closer to love