trains and trees

I journeyed to a foreign part of Singapore, saw the crowd on the other part of the island, took the Circle Line home for the first time today. I love all the times I spend travelling on the train, it is always such precious alone time. All the way home, I felt jittery. But I couldn’t understand why I wasn’t at ease and I scrolled through my messages wondering if it is because Sarah is going to be gone soon and that would mean dealing without a pillar in my life for half a year. I feel a certain sense of loss but I can’t quite place my finger on it. Sarah’s only gone in a month’s time and it’s too early to be feeling this way. Walking home with night-scent wind on my face, I realized circumstances and situations have made me a little steadier even when leaves and branches shake.